Torana
Friday, August 6, 2010
A lie?
Honestly I believe I’ve been living in a lie for the last few months.
I started reading blogs and thought ‘wow this really looks fun’ and started gathering photos I liked and that made me smile, laugh, cry and that spoke true feelings without talking, they knew what I was feeling and expressed them the way I couldn’t. I started blogging these things as I was going through a ‘rough’ time.
Lately things are starting to look up, I’ve realised a few things, made peace with a few people, and decided life is too short to be unhappy all the time. People can be taken away so easily. And through all that I noticed i slowly stopped blogging, I just wasn’t interested anymore and every time I try to bring myself to blog I think, ‘I don’t even want to’ if it was going to be that fun then I wouldn’t have to make myself do it. And I think it’s because I don’t really enjoy what I blog about. The pictures and quotes and what not all appear so depressing and miserable, and that’s not me! That’s not my passion that’s not what I base my life on, that’s not what I enjoy doing.
So it’s taken me quite a while but I think I’ve finally worked out what my passion in life is… I’m infatuated by cars. Think what you want about it. But I enjoy everything about them. I love just sitting in cars, I love the sound, I love the mini adrenaline rush, I love the thought of driving my own ‘souped up’ car. If you are unaware of my dirty slang souped up means; an enhanced or increased appeal in power, performance, or intensity. ;D
I’ve had a love for cars since I was very little. I used to do some weird things like sit in mums car for hours in the driveway just pretending to drive it. When ever we went on holidays anywhere I would take my big bag of cars and car mats with me. Mum hated it.
These days when I see a car I like, I normally say what car it is and rattle off about it, even though I know people aren’t even interested or listening to me. And I get so excited about the silliest things in/about cars, such as moving side mirrors.
I can walk down the street and say what car drives past me just by quickly glancing at it, people are amazed by this. And with some cars I’m that good at knowing what it is I can tell what car it is before I see it. Or just by seeing a headlight or indicator. It’s actually pretty crazy. But it’s what I enjoy.
And I’ve decided I’m going to start posting more about cars, as it’s what I love.
My mother wonders where I get this fascination of cars from, no one in my family has ever been like it, and no one likes cars but me.
Although I don’t so much like old cars, we are always buying new ones doing them up and selling them again.
Anyway, finished rambling for now.
I’ve still been reading every ones blogs and I’ll still blog and share all the things I’ve been gathering lately, (plus I have to remove them all from my computer somehow) but I’m going to start blogging more about my passion (:
I started reading blogs and thought ‘wow this really looks fun’ and started gathering photos I liked and that made me smile, laugh, cry and that spoke true feelings without talking, they knew what I was feeling and expressed them the way I couldn’t. I started blogging these things as I was going through a ‘rough’ time.
Lately things are starting to look up, I’ve realised a few things, made peace with a few people, and decided life is too short to be unhappy all the time. People can be taken away so easily. And through all that I noticed i slowly stopped blogging, I just wasn’t interested anymore and every time I try to bring myself to blog I think, ‘I don’t even want to’ if it was going to be that fun then I wouldn’t have to make myself do it. And I think it’s because I don’t really enjoy what I blog about. The pictures and quotes and what not all appear so depressing and miserable, and that’s not me! That’s not my passion that’s not what I base my life on, that’s not what I enjoy doing.
So it’s taken me quite a while but I think I’ve finally worked out what my passion in life is… I’m infatuated by cars. Think what you want about it. But I enjoy everything about them. I love just sitting in cars, I love the sound, I love the mini adrenaline rush, I love the thought of driving my own ‘souped up’ car. If you are unaware of my dirty slang souped up means; an enhanced or increased appeal in power, performance, or intensity. ;D
I’ve had a love for cars since I was very little. I used to do some weird things like sit in mums car for hours in the driveway just pretending to drive it. When ever we went on holidays anywhere I would take my big bag of cars and car mats with me. Mum hated it.
These days when I see a car I like, I normally say what car it is and rattle off about it, even though I know people aren’t even interested or listening to me. And I get so excited about the silliest things in/about cars, such as moving side mirrors.
I can walk down the street and say what car drives past me just by quickly glancing at it, people are amazed by this. And with some cars I’m that good at knowing what it is I can tell what car it is before I see it. Or just by seeing a headlight or indicator. It’s actually pretty crazy. But it’s what I enjoy.
And I’ve decided I’m going to start posting more about cars, as it’s what I love.
My mother wonders where I get this fascination of cars from, no one in my family has ever been like it, and no one likes cars but me.
Although I don’t so much like old cars, we are always buying new ones doing them up and selling them again.
Anyway, finished rambling for now.
I’ve still been reading every ones blogs and I’ll still blog and share all the things I’ve been gathering lately, (plus I have to remove them all from my computer somehow) but I’m going to start blogging more about my passion (:
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